My name Is Brenda and I’m just like you and every one else on the earth, well not every one. Let me explain, at my heaviest I  weighted in at 358 pounds on  Saturday at  Play it again Sports in Wichita Kansas on November the 13^th 2007, wow. I’m 5 feet 5 inches and I said wow too. I didn’t realize my body had expanded in to three people. At this point I had two choices, sit on my big fat butt and feel sorry for my self or do something about it. I chose movement and life. The choices ahead of me were, being healthy or eating that oversized, over fat food or moderation, better choices and portion size. I have just started taking diabetes medication and have to watch my sugar intake. So it’s not only one issue I’m dealing with its many. My self esteem is suffering because of the weight and the world was on my shoulders.  I have a back problem that hurts every minute of every day some time I can’t lift my legs to take a step. Ok, you don’t have to feel sorry for me, I did enough of that my self. I decided enough is enough I took a long look at my self in the mirror, and I was fat, I told my self as I stood there I am worth more, I am better than this, and I can and will succeed.  I’m fat, that is what I saw but that wasn’t who I was on the inside. If I saw fat fist so did the rest of the world. If I felt sorry for my self, so did every one around me. When I ate like a fat person I told every one I was not going to change, even though I hated my self, my look, my size 6x clothing, what a mess what a life, a revolving endless cycle of death. I looked at my self and decided I want to live, then I cried and had know idea how to change and gave up and grabbed a bag of chips  and turned on the TV and a show was on about a bunch of fat people trying to loose weight, it was The Biggest Looser. I heard about it from my sister but I figured it was another fake show. Then one day out of the blue I started watching a rerun of the 3^rd season I was hooked, there were real people like me with my problems that did loose weight and kept it off. I had hope, not much but I had hope. I looked in the mirror this time, and found things I liked about my self and gave up the old me. Yes I am fat, ok, yes I am three people, ok, when your flat on your back the only was is up. I got up and I’m better each day. I told my self it is ok to love your self, even fat, in front of my mirror every day I tell my self that I love me and I will succeed because I was given  hope by this TV show that helps me believe in me. So thank you to The Biggest Loser, hope is power and power is success and I am succeeding each day, small baby steps but it is still success.